First off, there are definitely a lot of people like me.
I’m a girl who struggles every day with the challenges this society presents to her, but I face these challenges with hard work and steadfastness.
Yes, with hard work and steadfastness.
I work hard to attain the basic necessities any human being might need, which isn’t really deemed an accomplishment according to the social class that I work with.
So, it’s upsetting when people assume that the car you own or the things you have were given to you by your parents, when it was you alone who worked hard to buy them.

I feel so frustrated.
Because I live in a society that doesn’t respect women who don’t have a man.
It doesn’t even have to be a man I have any lawful relationship to.
He just needs to be a strong man, one that could stand up to the bastards in the street or show up at social occasions.

I’m still a young woman in her thirties.
I’ve got a good job, and as far as most girls are concerned, I’m a successful person professionally—a trivial goal, but one that has consumed my life for years now.
I wanted to be good at my job to gain the respect of everyone around me, even my family.
So that I could do what I want to do later: acting.

I love acting, and I practice in the workshops that I participate in.
When I perform a scene well in any workshop, they ask me:
“How is it that you haven’t been acting for longer?” or “How do you act with such truth?”
I can’t find any reply other than that I’m not acting.
On the other hand, my real life feels like a farce. I feel like that’s when I’m actually forced to act.
But in the workshops, I really produce my true emotions
Or the feelings of people I meet in my daily life.

As far as I’m concerned, acting isn’t hard at all.
But it’s not my dream to become an actor.
My dream is to study to become a playwright, because I feel like I have personal experiences and emotions that could help me realize this dream.
Maybe I can share the details I take note of in my daily life with others.
If I succeed in learning how to express them simply, that is.