Complicated

Come on!
You’re the ones who said it was better for me to attend an all girls’ school.
You told me to completely avoid anyone with short hair, and I did!

No clubs, no trips, no talking to any male relatives.
No going to places that could present any opportunity to interact with the male species.
I remember one very rare occasion when I went to one of those private lesson centers.
It was my first time seeing a boy my age!

OH MY GOD!

I was in high school and it was really shocking to learn that boys my age had beards!
They all made fun of me when I called one of them uncle!
Excuse me! But how am I supposed to know that the person hiding behind that mustache is only 16?!

I didn't read any books that said teenage males had voices as loud and obnoxious as a helicopter!
It was so scary! I almost cried.
I left the place and never went back!

Going to college brought my relationship with men to an end!
I discovered that I was a phenomenon.
And hey people, don't use the word “conservative" any more!
I had to avoid girls as well because I was terrified of hearing the word a’rafik? [Do I know you?]

Now, I'm 25 with a full history of losing my mind in front of every man I’ve ever interacted with!
And I wonder how you have the audacity to say I have issues for refusing suitors!

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