My problem is that I’m a kind and decent person.
The kind of person who thinks of others before acting, who puts himself in their shoes.
For this reason, I’m an outcast. I literally have no friends, and I live far away from my family.
I even work online, so in a way, I don’t interact with people at all.
I’ve become scared.
Or to be more specific, I’m always scared.
Scared of being hurt and being unable to hit back.
Or scared of the guilt I’ll feel afterward, because I know if I decide to hurt someone, I’ll hurt them badly.
I’ll destroy them, to be precise.
I did that once to my best friend during senior year.
I’m terrified of doing that again.
That’s why I’m alone. Very alone.
I was happy when I found the link, because that meant I’d get to talk with somebody, even if that person was someone I didn’t know.
