I never liked makeup.
I never liked how it felt on my skin.
Ever since middle school,
I’ve had a huge acne problem.
I’ve been to countless doctors,
But whatever solutions they provide are temporary.
The acne on my face always comes back.
Sometimes, it’s so bad I can’t out or meet anyone,
Because of how terrible it looks.
"Why don’t you see a doctor?” people always ask me when they see my face.
Or “Hide your acne with makeup.
Girls shouldn't go out looking like that.”
I was riding the metro one time,
When a lady I didn’t know stopped me.
“How disgusting!” she exclaimed, “Do you not wash your face?!”
Even though it has nothing to do with cleanliness, I swear.
I gave into their pressure,
More than once.
I decided to just wear makeup and be done with it.
My acne got even worse than before.
And I didn’t feel like myself.
My last resort is hormone treatment.
I’m terrified of the idea, to be honest,
Because of the side effects.
But anything will hurt less than the pain I feel when someone makes fun of me.