There are a lot of women going through the same experience as I am.
It’s dealing with oppression,
Due to the molds we put ourselves in,
By sticking to routine and abiding by society’s standards of what’s normal and acceptable.

I’ll give you an example.
I had a job, but I wasn’t very good at it.
Normally, I should’ve looked for another job; one that I’d be good at.
But since I’m a dependent person, I chose the traditional path:
Getting married and becoming a housewife.

I did work, but it was a rather insignificant job.
It made me feel helpless and restrained.
Even though I could’ve easily left the job and found another one.
I chose to trap myself in the comfortable, traditional role.
Just because I am afraid of change.
I lack the motivation to take a step towards change.

This applies to every other aspect of my life, including my partner.
I feel like he was forced on me.
Like I didn’t choose him out of my own free will.
I forced myself to deal with the choice I made and bear its consequences.
I can’t get myself to confront him in order to find a comfortable middle ground.
Nor am I able to end things and start all over again.

The one thing I’m sure of is that I’m oppressing myself.
It’s my fault.
I chose to give in to comfort.