I’m a 32-year-old man,
And I struggle with being overweight.
Every morning I wake up and look at myself in the mirror,
And feel disgusted with my body.
I can’t love it, and I can’t change it.
I get really hurt by people’s comments.
Comments like, “You’ve gained weight!”
Everyone acts as if I’m constantly dieting,
It’s like they’re reminding me that I’ve gained weight.

Most of the time, when we’re out eating,
I excuse myself,
And go to the bathroom to throw up everything I’ve eaten.
The heartburn I feel is exhausting.
Bulimia is an eating disorder,
And it’s been my curse since high school.
There are days when I threw up three times a day, and sometimes once.
Being overweight is the biggest problem in my life.
People’s comments kill me:
“Don’t order fries. You’re supposed to diet!”
“Aren’t you going to drink a diet coke?”
“If you go to the gym, your body will look completely different!”
I feel like all my problems have to do with my body,
And this makes me eat even more as a means of escape.
Even when it comes to love,
I can’t forget when someone told me,
“Your personality is perfect, but she says you’re fat!”
When I go shopping for clothes,
When I need to get my picture taken,
When I have to meet someone new,
These are all struggles.
I’ve been dieting,
And I’ve been in hell for the last 20 years.