I’m really thin,
And I always get bullied because of my body type.
My friends are always joking about it and making fun of me.
I try to play along and pretend it doesn’t upset me,
but I can’t.

I let a lot of moments,
Moments that could’ve been really special,
Pass me by because of this.
A lot of cancelled outings because I look too thin in clothes.
A lot of skipped summer vacations,
And unposted pictures.
I have reached a point where I hate my body.
I’m always angry and annoyed with how I look.
I feel weak and feeble all the time.

I used to avoid wearing t-shirts in the summer.
I wore shirts instead because they made me look a little better.
I bought a lot of clothes that I just stored in the closet and never wore.
There are a lot of mean things that I can’t get out of my head,
Things that keep me up at night.
I’m 20, and every time I walk down the street,
I feel that everyone can notice how thin I am.
In all the relationships I’ve been in,
When I went out with the girl and was walking by her side,
I’d think to myself, “She must think I am so skinny and look bad!”

I have zero self-confidence.
And I feel I’ve developed OCD as a result of all this.
I’m frustrated and disgusted with myself.
I’ve thought about going to the gym,
But I can’t really afford it, so I keep putting it off.
I hate myself.
I hate how I look,
How I dress,
The pictures I take,
Everything.
Because of all the embarrassing situations I find myself in.