You're Not a Girl

I’m a girl, but I never let anyone see my hair.
Even at home.
Even when I’m asleep or coming out of the shower.
I cover my hair at all times because of the abuse I get subjected to and because of the way they look at me.
“Your hair is coarse.”
“You’re ugly.”
“Girls have beautiful hair. You’re not a girl.”
“You don’t look nice.”

I decided to wear the hijab.
I find myself miserable and in tears when the weather is hot.
The hijab suffocates me, but I can’t take it off.
I’m emotionally drained.
I want my hair to be free.
Pray for me.
There’s no one I can talk to.
No one understands what I’m going through.

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