I am scared that if I tell people, they would think I am petty and bad person.
But if they knew the details, they would understand.

Whenever he did something to upset me, he’d act all sad when I got upset.
So I’d find myself making it up to him
I mean, I love him after all.

But I realised that he’d been lying to me.
He embarasses me in front of people and makes fun of my work and my opinions.
And if love is not there, then there is no reason for us to stay together.
But I realised that there are so many people who don’t see that as a valid enough reason.

When I talked to a social worker, she said:
“I am a married woman, and I don’t get you!
You’re not normal, you’re crazy
This is why you want to get a divorce?”

If I had married someone I didn’t love, it would have been another story altogether.
I would have weighed my options differently, in terms of money and social capital.
But our marriage was different because we loved each other.

After we left each other, I kept wondering if I could issue a new ID and erase all the years I spent with him.
There’s nothing else I want as much.