Hating My Body

“My daughter is fat and black.
She doesn’t look like her siblings.
Even her brothers look nicer than she does.”
I’ve been taught to hate my body ever since I was young.
“You’re fat, black, and you have eyes as small as buttons.”
“Look at all the other girls. You’ll never get married.”

That’s why I had to get married before all of them.
I had to settle for the first suitor who came knocking on our door.
Nevermind the age difference,
How well-read he was,
Or his manners.
The only thing that mattered was to prove that I was beautiful and desirable.
I still can’t look at my body in the mirror,
Because I was brought up to believe it was disgusting.

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