I’ve never known what it’s like to feel beautiful.
Every day I am reminded that I am fat,
That my "messy” hair looks bad,
And that I have a weird face.
My own mother tells me daily that I should lose weight.
I have been straightening my hair for around 7 years now.
Every time I wash my hair,
I feel ashamed of its frizziness.
I have been trying to lose weight for 5 years to no avail.
It's sad knowing I will never be beautiful in my family's eyes unless I look "perfect".
It’s sad how I am told that no man has ever shown interest in me,
Because of how fat I am.
How I can't feel beautiful in my own eyes,
Because I am consistently reminded of how ugly I am.