Normal-Looking

I’ve had black circles under my eyes ever since I was young.
It’s genetic.
I also have bulging eyes.
I hated school,
Because of the way my friends looked at me,
Like they were making fun of me.
They saw me as less than them,
Because I don’t look normal.

A friend of mine even asked me once,
“Are your parents related?”
She wanted to know if my looks were the result of close relative marriage.

My family never supported or defended me.
I hate family gatherings and occasions,
Because I’m always sure all eyes will be on me,
Especially the children.
When someone tells me I’m pretty,
I know they’re just being nice.

I don’t wish to be beautiful.
I just want to look normal.
Meaning, normal eyes.
And I wish when people looked at me,
They wouldn’t do a double take.

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