My current weight is 70 kg,
And I’m 163 cm tall.
My weight used to be around 58 to 60 kg,
Never any more than that.
Then I went through a very difficult period in my life,
And I was expelled from university.

Both of my parents are dead,
And I live with my older sister.
I have many siblings:
Five sisters and two brothers.
They’re all married and have kids,
Except me.
When I gained weight,
They made me feel self-conscious about the way I looked.
“You look like a panda.”
“You’re going to be as fat as our relative [so and so].”
“Nobody is going to marry you when you look like that.”
“Look at your double chin.”
“You look like a fat, married woman.
This can’t go on.”
“[So and so] got married and you still haven’t,
Because of how you look.
Lose the extra weight and you’ll start getting suitors.”

Side note:
The relative they’re talking about is 20 years old.
She used to weigh 160 kg,
Then she lost weight and became 90 kg.
She got plastic surgery,
And became depressed again,
And began eating again,
Because she didn’t think of herself as pretty,
Because of the comments she received.
I’m like her even if I’ve never been her weight.
But I sometimes eat when I feel sad,
Or to be more precise,
I love eating.
When I go on a diet or to the gym,
I lose my motivation quickly,
And isolate myself in my room and get depressed.

A lot of people think I’m pretty.
I always get compliments on how I look,
And I’m seen as pretty and desirable,
But I don’t get that from my family.
They’re constantly comparing me to others,
And that in itself is enough to ruin anyone’s self-esteem,
And cause them to self-isolate or become suicidal.