The Sports Club Bathroom

I think I was seven years old.
I was at the sports club with my cousin,
When I met a relative of hers,
Whom I had never seen before.
But it was okay, I thought.
I played with his children for a bit.

Then I told them I was going to the bathroom.
The bathroom was in a dark area,
So I told my cousin to come with me.
“I’ll come with you because it’s dark,” the relative said.

I went into the bathroom,
And I remember he told me to leave the door open so I wouldn’t be scared.
“Okay,” I said.
That’s when he grabbed me.
I don’t remember if I was upset or not.
He tried to kiss me,
And told me how to kiss him.
I did as he said.

I can’t imagine how or why I didn’t say no.
I’ve never told this to anyone.
I thought I never would.
I didn’t think it was a big deal.
I don’t know why I didn’t resist.
Am I a bad person?

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