I work in the field of life coaching and training.
I’m not from Cairo.
I’m from Upper Egypt,
From Minya specifically.
I came here alone.
Meaning I left behind my family—
And I come from a big family—
And my job, life, and friends.
And I’m a sociable person,
And I like maintaining close relationships with people.
So, my family and friends mean the world to me.
My problem stems from the fact that I’m my mother’s only daughter.
She always tells me that I’m an unlucky person and that I’ll always be without friends.
I have flaws like everyone else, but not to the extent of being this lonely.
I’m extremely lonely.
I’ve never felt safe.
My family is well-off,
And we have everything we need.
But that’s not enough.
I’ve never felt safe with my family.
There are always problems and fights.
I’ve never been subjected to physical abuse. Maybe only a few times.
But I’ve always been subjected to mental abuse, disappointment.
No one ever cared about me.
No one ever tried to make me happy.
I’m neither happy nor content with my life.
My mind goes numb from overthinking.
My life is devoid of people, pleasure, or motivation to live.
The only thing I love,
And the only thing I invest my energy in,
And what allows me to live in a different world,
For some reason, I spent my childhood without ever making real friends.
I only had friends to play with at school.
We called each other on the phone to ask about homework.
That was the extent of our friendship.