“Everybody leaves, sooner or later
Just make sure when they do, you hold on to your dignity.
That's what matters the most,” she said.
It has been rough.
I have been through so much.
I no longer want to ignore what's happening to me, around me.
I feel angry most of the time and empty.
I feel sad and alone.
I wonder why I care about people who don't care for me?
I met him, and I had this strong physical attraction to him.
He was sexy.
We were both attracted to each other.
We slept together twice.
But, it was really scary.
There was blood everywhere.
I was not a virgin then, and I had no idea where all that blood came from.
I didn’t freak out though,
But he panicked.
He never touched me again.
I couldn't stop asking myself.
Why would he do that?
Was it my fault?
No, it was not.
I felt rejected and needy and childish.
I felt ashamed.
And small.