In Shock

There are too many obstacles that prevent me from being with her.
The most difficult one is her recent marriage.
Our separation left a hole in my heart.
No one has been able to fill it ever since.

Perhaps it’s because she was the first woman I had sexual relations with.
Perhaps it’s because our sexual relationship developed so quickly
Perhaps it’s because we separated so suddenly.

I’m still in shock.

We broke up years ago,
But I still think of her whenever I have sex.
She never loved me,
But we were attached to each other.

We were like a married couple.
I was impressed by her honesty about her past relationships.
I’m still suffering from her absence,
But I know that I shouldn’t be with her anymore.
All she wants is to get revenge.

I’m in pain,
And the memories of our intimate moments are tearing me apart.

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